Goodbye Daddy

Dear Daddy,

Noone's told me what's wrong with me.
All i know is im messed up.
And all i ever do is fuck up.
All i know is i can't be perfect.
And i'll never be what you wanted.
      
You didn't want me.
Nobody did.
You were happy being a rebel.
And i came along forcing you to grow up.
You hid this from me for sixteen years.
But you can't always hide things like that.
    
Cancer stole from me the person i'd hold onto now,
If he was here i'd know i was beautiful,
He'd tell me like he did back then,
I want to feel love like that again,
I want him back,
Or i want to join him.

I'm in love now,
But you've made life hard on him.
You burned me so if he looses his temper,
Even for a second,
I cant stop shaking.

All i ever wanted was to make you happy,
make you proud,
but you never see the little things i do for you.
You only see the things i forget to do.

I can't pull myself out of this,
I've been doing that for too long.
I really did love you.
I never stopped for a second.

Goodbye Daddy. xox